//bReAkDaNz + FrEe-sTyLe = lIfEsTyLe\\

+ hmmm.. thinking +

2005-10-21T06:10:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. today is kinda going quite ok.. was running away from that chinese teacher.. me and victoria.. then ms quah caught us and thought we were running from her.. so bhb.. run also dont wanna run from her.. hmmm.. but it`s ok.. we`ll produce a letter somehow..

started talking to a friend again.. hmmm.. dont know.. it`s complicated really.. but got to sort some vb stuff out.. kinda coplicated too.. misuderstanding between me and my closest junior.. wei shi.. hmmm.. i just gotta be free. i have more issues than anyone would know.. she`s practically a senior to me instead of me to her.. always like my mentor and shoulder.. back bone.. helper in times of need.. she`s always there.. hmmm anyway..

saw joseph today after obs.. goodness i so wanna go.. haha.. 500 just to go on yr own account.. so freaking ex!!! but someday i`ll go i know it.. plus.. he`s still so white.. it`s like almost a great way for tanning.. haha.. got to go out some day i`m totally trapped dying.. hmmm.. goodness.. living hell i have 4 months to learn 3 totally new songs and play em for an exam after that i have another 3 months for 2 songs for a concert in june.. living hell.. all this for my mother.. love her to bits.. hmmm.. hoping she`ll see something diff and give me some free space to breathe..

i`m going sec 4!!! i should think so.. though.. exams dont matter no more when you take o`s cause only o`s are counted.. i`m going to work my butt off.. and get to sajc by hook or by crook and must win something at nationals.. so at least i have achievements to present to that scoo.. so want to get in.. anyhow.. i`m out.. tired and nothin realli.. to say..

[L]ing5 + out + peace

:: yellow woman ::

2005-10-16T06:56:00.001-07:00

hmmm.. today can be one of the best worst day`s of my life.. i went to church.. and after church went to ewat at subway.. then my sis bro mum and i went to mango to look at some stuff.. my sis and i took a huge load of clothes and went to try em on.. i lost my phone..

in the changing room..

one of the worst places ever to loose your phone.. hmmmm.. so wats with that yellow woman crap??!! well there`s this woman who was standing outside my changing room.. her daughter was trying on loads of clothes.. like everythoing.. jeans shirt jacket.. like they had tons of money or someting.. then whenever i came out of the room to show my sis who was changing beside me she would give me that kinda.. my daughter is soooo much better than you.. look.. so i just ignored her..

then when i went to pay for the clothes.. her daughter was hogging the whole cashier table for like sooooo long.. around 3 mins.. then she said you keep this for mi.. my mother is still changing.. so i was like fine.. nevermind.. then when i went to ask her mother about the phone.. i said excuse me did you see a phone in the changing room i was in? then she was like har??!!! with that.. old coffee shop aunty kinda tone.. i said did you see a phone when you were changing.. she was like ar!!! wa.. getting pissed.. then i said phone.. got see??!! it seemed like broken english was the only thing she understood.. so she said er.. no no i nvr try clothes.. i was like fine lor.. take then take..

you know why??!!

it`s a phone.. yes.. but the keypad was gone.. there were passwords everywhere.. she turned it off.. and te phone had no trade in value.. gone case that woman.. so i call her yellow woman cause she`s like really coffeeshop untie.. like from china.. dont know no proper english..

wa.. but my mother was not so pissed she as like o ok.. then she wasnt really very very very angry like the first time.. which was a lil good.. made me feel better.. hey.. i didnt cry.. haha.. but i guess there`s a soft spot in everyone..

[L]ing5//= out\\=peace

'' yummilicious ''

2005-10-15T07:28:00.000-07:00

today was pretty hectic.. was at volleyball trg at 8.45 which was good because training started like an hour later than usual.. so we played queen of court twice.. the first time my team won!!!!! but i had to leave after the first round cause i rushed down stairs for sajc open house.. it was pretty nice there.. there was really a homely feeling.. probably not going to ajc anymore.. hex.. it`s a pretty good school science stream`s cut off point is 9 arts is 11 pretty good cause but.. wit affliliated schools.. us.. there`s minus 2 points so.. if you`ve been with them since january.. it`s 4 points.. good huh.. cca points arent included.. but they`ll look at the overall performance of the cca you`re in in sec school.. then they could most probably fit you in..

soooo fun.. aneesa mi and sharmaine.. ppl kept asking us to join their cca`s and th volleyball girls took my name for i don`t know what purposes.. but overall was kinda fun.. drama club had this girl dressed like a ghost with fake blood everywhere.. pretty cool huh.. and she really did act dead.. =) i think i`m definitly going.. hehe.. the principal is so fun.. she takes part in activities like sports day.. and.. she`s really sporty and understanding.. like a real mother of more than a thousand students..

their dance group was ok.. but i think in the long run you`ll see them as better and better.. they do a lot of hand work.. and they smile.. so sweet!! this gymnastics girl asked me to join gymnastics.. i was like.. oh my.. i`m so unflex and she`s like join la join la.. then indian cultural club splashed water on us.. as a form on blessing.. ok.. we were like.. er.. thanks.. loads of geeky guys.. but never lacking in precious few cute guyz.. pretty girls every where.. and the girl who took us on a tour.. she couldnt talk properly and we were like huh all the time..

then.. aneesa and i went to eat at habour front shopping mall.. kinda cool.. i think its small but very long. length wise. then went for dance.. had to change my steps.. you know.. i`m not good at choreographed steps.. only free style then i`ll be just fine.. hmmm.. then i went to meet my sister to buy yong tau foo.. had steam boat for dinner.. yummilicious.. that`s it.. so.. blog again tomorrow.. =)

[L]ing5 - peace

::today::

2005-10-14T07:49:00.000-07:00

today was kind of broing.. i slept in woke up at about 12.35 made lunch then cleared my table.. met jasmine and went to yun zhens house for 2d 2004 talent time but.....

we took the wrong bus and got lost.. that poor dear was so cold cause we went to seletar camp and it was raining.. she was practically freezing.. we took to bus back to pasir ris and then cabbed to yun zhen`s house.. haha.. pathetic..

lost in your own country.. hehe.. aniwae.. practically thats wat happened todae.. now.. re doing my blog.. found the back ground boring

[L]ing5-peace

//AnGer=??

2005-07-23T21:44:00.000-07:00

aNger is defined in greater words such as rage..fury..resentment..indignation..anger can lead to many things.. effects on not only you but the people around you.. sometimes it is just time to step up to what you think is right and not keep everything in and just let it build i did that once.. i am doing it again.. many people have the tendancy to put on a smiley face and not show in any way that you are upset and full of rage take for example that unt who came one day and told my mother i was full of rage..

aNger is not something you can just release.. most of the time something die not externally but internally.. your spirit.. your spirit, actually is something very important it is the backbone of your poise and behaviour.. if you have watched me myself and irene.. <> he kept all the rage in him it caused his kindness and tenderness to die giving hima split personality.. it affected his cildren his job himself and the way people felt towards him.. of course in movies endings are 99.999% always happy.. in life, it`s a whole different story.. whether it ends happily or not it`s up to you.. you are the creator the moulder the archetect of your life.. it is how you want it to be.. i admit i wouldnt be in some positions if i hadnt done someting.. but like i sad before we fall so that we can stand again

aNd standing again only makes you stronger.. this time, not only internally but externally.. it moulds you.. whether or not to a better person or worse it again depends on you.. so if you are really angry dont get through the day with that anger confron it and stop being sooooo childish by talking behind peoples backs..because it in-turn eats you up.. more than it does to the other person.. save yourself while you still can..

__pEace out___ [L]ing5

childishness..//??

2005-07-02T03:18:00.000-07:00

sorry sooo long never blog le.. anihowz.. todaex title is relli fun..

cHildish the word comes from the word child.. in da dictionary actually means.. child like, babyish,immature,silly.. these probably describes many people on this earth.. some examples of which are children.. but however sometimes.. youths and adults can be immature..take fer instance a person trying to, as you call it, suan" a ex- friend who backstabbed you or vice versA anihows.. mani people are going through this problem where other try to suan you.. maturely.. dun do anithing bad behind their back becasue it`s child like.. instead ignore and act like he didnt sae anithing to insult you.. unless it gets bad.. though it gets bad.. dun do anithing behind his back instead do it in front of him..

iN life we face mani obstacles.. but we cannot let one unfortunate incident pull our spirits and morals" down.. cause it`s immature especially when you dwell on the past.. so advice.. keep out of each others way dun sae anithing bad for it WILL come bouncing happily back to you.. kArMa :) peace out..

lOuSy??!!

2005-05-19T17:48:00.000-07:00

iN life many things go in an opp direction.. and in these times.. it`s a test of our faith and discipline.. our strength to go on and wisdom to overcome new challenges.. times of troubles are not few.. neither are they mani.. it`s just at times like these you tend to loose control and feel down.. lous and baad.. probably depressed.. however we have to have to courage to get up and move on.. be it in relationships.. studies.. cca`s.. any aspect of our lives..

fAlling down is sumthing that can not only happen physically but emotionally and in your mind..sumthin which we can never avoid.. each time we solve one obstacle one cums.. it is not considered many fer all problems dont come at once.. we are all given a fair share of problems and fair share on godly advice.. help and everything.. we have to think reflect share it and seek advice..

sO all peepx out dere who have problems bring it up.. it can be solved and can be saved can be back to normal all you have to do is never loose faith most importantly in your self...

pEace out..
ling5

:: aPrIl fUlLz dAe ::

2005-04-01T21:38:00.000-08:00

tOdae was kinda boring.. had 4 periods of a maths hmmm that stupid fatty cher.. hmmm.. everydae sweat until so gross de.. hmmm.. now listening to music blogging and chatting on msn.. hmmm

tOdae was also anilz burfdae.. hahaxx.. so farnie.. everyone was like spraying whipped cream at him.. hmmm.. glad they all had fun.. hahaxx.. hmmm then jasmine marcus victoria verena nathenial vikram calvin chang aall eating da cake then not enuf.. then that kwok keep asking us to clear up.. no fun no life de lor he.. hmmm..

wEnt to eat wif jasmine janice and ver after skewl.. finally jasminee finish her fuud lorxx.. hmmmm.. then went straight home got piano and tuition.. so sian.. i found that this week i onli spend 8 $$ hahaxx.. so happy save so much money.. can go shopping soon worxx.. =)

sTill got soooo much homework like holidae like that man!! hate it.. but sudenly dun feel as much stress as i used to feel.. not like verh relax.. then i still can solve a maths qnx myself.. however......... my poa backsliding worxx.. also dunno wat to do.. hmph.. dun wanna drop love it but cant realli seem to do well.. hmph..

sO to all you guyz reading.. wish ya all da best mid year cumin real soon worxx.. muz studi hard!!! you can do it!! =) hmmmm.. gtg.. leaving wif you.. hmmm.. which song to leave.. think think think.. OBSESSION!!!

//tO all you peepx\\
Son las cinco de la manana
Y no he dormido nada
Just thinkin' 'bout your beauty
Got me crazy in the head
El insomnio es mi castigo
Tu amor sera´mi alivio
Until you're in my arms, girl
I can have no peace in bed

It's five o'clock in the mornin'
I can't get no sleep
When I think about your beauty it makes me weak
I lay restless at home, without you there
Until you are mine, I'll find no relief

Amor, si es amor
Your love's got me feelin'
Obsessed in my soul
Si es amor not an illusion
That makes me do things
That my heart can't control

I know you're not my lady
But I'm full of hopes and maybes
Till onto your love can't save me
Solo puedo hablar de ti
Saw you with your "amigo"
Girl he don't look so "rigo"
No sabe complacerte, como lo haria yo

It's five o'clock in the mornin'
I can't get no sleep
When I think about your beauty it makes me weak
I lay restless at home, without you there
Until you are mine, I'll find no relief

Amor (si es amor)
Si es amor (si es amor)
Your love's got me feelin'
(your love's got me)
Obsessed in my soul
Si es amor not an illusion
That makes me do things
That my heart can't control

When it feel so right n
I don't care what people say
After I’ll grab the lotion grab the blanket take a trip to
Monorae We can, do it on the beach, cause you know, how we goin' do
We goin, act a fool, even when we run it cool
Put on your favorite dress
Let’s impress the town a lotta
Got the gucci bag oops my mistake
You stunt that Prada – yada Yada
Im saying Yada I mean Yada I holla
And I'm so proud to say one day
I'll be your baby's father
You fine

Es amor, es amor
(te quiero mucho)
Es an obsesión
(es an obsesión)
Es amor, es amor
(3rd wish)
Es an obsesión

Amor, si es amor
Your love's got me feelin' (your love's got me)
Obsessed in my soul Si es amor
Not an illusion
That makes me do things
That my heart can't control

Amor, si es amor
Your love's got me feelin' (your love's got me feelin')
Obsessed in my soul
Si es amor not an illusion (3rd wish)
That makes me do things (baby bash)
That my heart can't control

Amor

>----piERRE rawkxxxx

:: tOdAE`S rEaLlI FaRnIe ::

2005-03-26T21:35:00.000-08:00

tOdae was loadsa fun.. we played against thailand they were so cute and all da gals were so woohooo.. they were so fun to be with.. then we grew so attatched that we didnt wanna leave and they didnt wanna leave.. exchanged address and emails and then they had to go.. so kewl.. so their names were.. bum pronounced as boom then kat..bear..tat..pui..hmmm so on.. cant realli rememebr.. so cute.. hmmm now listening to beutiful soul on da com.. gawd i love it.. plus da memories it brings back.. hmm.. i want it back..

sO i dun realli have anithing to sae.. except.. hmmm.. put urself in others shoes.. hmmmm... yeap.. :) love ya`ll see ya around..

=/i oWe yOu A dEdIcAtIoN=Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're, you're never there
But when I sleep you're, you're everywhere
You're everywhere

Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look You're never there
And every time I sleep You're always there

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone

I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that You might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know That makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone

I am not alone

And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you
I see You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath
It's you I breathe
You're everything
I know That makes me believe
I'm not alone

You're in everyone
I see So tell me
Do you see me?

:: lIfE oR sUmThIn lIkE It ::

2005-03-24T12:46:00.000-08:00

lIfe itself isnt easy.. its a bitch that when you punch it it flies and cums back punching you back right in da face.. sumtimes things just dun go the right wae.. so i`m here todae.. to admit that i have been a bitch in one wae or another and i`m realli sorry.. i wanna sae sorry to jasmine.. i didnt mean to make you jealous in anywae.. that wasnt my intention.. i`m sorry.. i wanna sae sorry to verena, fer anithings i`ve ever offended you with in any wae at all.. i wanna sae sory to daron fer aniwae in which i`ve hurt you and sorry to every body in da whole wide world that i`ve ever made angry.. i`m just realli sorry.. would you accept my apology??!!

hOwever i wanna sae thnkew to foo sue ann fer alwaes being there and telling mi things to comfort mi.. i wanna thnk her fer the line.. ur onli 14 and you wanna die wat about the rest of ur life.. thnx so much it has realli helped mi a lot.. i wanna sae thnx to fairuz.. fer alwaes teling mi wats best fer mi and warning me and stuff.. i wanna sae thnkew to daron fer alwaes making mi happi when i was sad.. thnkew fer the song alwaes look on da brightside of life.. thnkew to jasmine fer being my fwen fer 2 years in 2d.. thnkew to anione who is my fwen thnkew fer being my fwen..

sO after this i`m just realli sorry could everyone furgive me

=\fEr everyone/=
so you stole my heart, and left me a ransom letter
demanding I treat you better,
should I ever want it back and
now I'm all alone
dreams are all forgotten,
memories all turned rotten,
it's notthe same on the phone

so what's up girl?
things haven't changed a bit since we last met
I bet my bottom dollar you're the best,
girl that I ever hadI never wanna lose you
so what's up?

I can't let you walk away
we planned to live forever in each others arms
so pleace hold on
you know-no one will love you like i do!
and that's the thing-you know it too

I hear our song; it keeps playing on the radio
I'm all alone and I just want you to hold
I hear our song it keeps playing on the radio
please make your mind up, don't see what the future holds

<>

>: sHuT//Up ::<

2005-03-19T21:23:00.000-08:00

>eVeryday we see and meet new people.. maybe of different backgrounds maybe of certain similarities. wE meet people with different attitudes different styles.. do you ever think about what goes on in their mind.. they may be the nerdiest but the dirtiest minds you`ve ever seen or come across.. oN the other hand they may be nerdy and full of sorrows in such a way where their repeatedly being bullied because of the person they are.. their dressing sense.. the books they carry..

>eVerytime we as bully`s sae sumthin to em.. they are being hurt so deep that a simple sorry would never do.. there`s this ga in my 2004 class of 2d((2dians we rawk!!)), she was always trying to fit in.. then we as bullies come to realise that hey she`s never gonna stop trying to fit in.. there are so many other cliques in da class but she must choose da biggest and most popular group in da class to try to fit into.. so we continued bullying her.. i felt a little bad about it.. i think my group memebers did too.. but she was really freaky and i mean really.. she was nick named weirdo..

>sO weirdo was always trying to fit in and she came to her weird senses and created weirdo land.. and her childish but not so foolish mentality was that she was da chairman of this club that weird people joined.. and fer one year there was onli one memeber .... her... hahaxx.. sO the childish most foolish thing she ever did was to assume that my clique wanted to join and all of us was entitled to free membership.. gawd!!! terrible like who on earth especially my clique wanted to join...

>sO she was bullied is being bullied and will always be bullied.. by mi and mi fwens.. hahaxx.. crazy lil weirdo.. hmmm.. hey weirdo.. this song below is dedicated to you.. :) try harder.. hahaxx.. my phrase.. in 2d.. got trademark de worxx..

+=fEr WeIrDo=+

There you go
You're always so right
It's all a big show
It's all about you
You think you know
What everyone needs
You always take time to criticize me
It seems like everyday
I make mistakes
I just can't get it right
It's like I'm the one you love to hate
But not today.

So shut up shut up shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out get out get out
Get out of my way
Step up step up step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say can change
You'll never bring me down

So there you go
You never ask why
It's all a big lie
Whatever you do
You think you're special
But I know and I know and I know
And we know that you're not
You're always there to point
Out my mistakes
And shove them in my face
It's like I'm the one you love to hate
But not today.

So shut up shut up shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out get out get out
Get out of my way
Step up step up step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say can change
And gonna bring me down
Gonna bring me down.
Will never bring me down.
Don't tell me who I should be
Don't try to tell me what's right for me
Don't tell me what I should do
Cause I don't wanna waste my time
Watch you fade away

So shut up shut up shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out get out get out
Get out of my way
Step up step up step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say can change
And gonna me down

I don't wanna hear it
Get out get out
Get out of my way
Step up step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say can change
And bring me down
Won't bring me down
Won't bring me down
Bring me down
Won't bring me down
Shut up shut up!!!!!!!!!

:: tRyInG A ReAsOn fOr gOoDbYe ::

2005-03-18T22:05:00.000-08:00

=+= oVeR??!! =+=
I watch the walls around me crumble
But it's not like
I won't build them up again
So here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts cause it will end
My tears are turning into time
I'm wasting trying to find a reason for goodbye

I can't live with you can't breathe without you
I dream about you
Honestly tell me that it's over
Cause if the world is spinning and
I'm still living, it won't be right if we're not in it together
Tell me that it's over and I'll be the first to go don't want to be the last to know

I won't be the one to chase you
But at the same time you're the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions and the more I try to feel the less
I'm whole My tears are turning into time
I'm wasting trying to find a reason for goodbye

I can't live with you
can't breathe without you
I dream about you
Honestly tell me that it's over
Cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living,
it won't be right if we're not in it together
Tell me that it's over and I'll be the first to go don't want to be the last to know

Over,over,over
My tears are turning into time
I'm wasting trying to find a reason for goodbye

I can't live with you c
an't breathe without you
I dream about you
Honestly tell me that it's over
Cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living,
it won't be right if we're not in it together
Tell me that it's over

honestly tell me,
honestly tell me don't tell me that it's over,
don't tell me that it's over

<<>> ___peace out____

:: dAnG Ni gU DaN Ni hUi xIaNg qI?? ::

2005-03-17T22:07:00.000-08:00

hMmmm fer those of you who dunno wat da topic means its saeing who do you think of when ur`re lonely.. hmmmm.. yesterdae my fwen saed my entrees make mi sound so matured.. hmmm so ta loosen out a bit i came up wif this topic..

rEalli.. who do you think of when ur`re lonely??!! being lonely is sumthin no one wants to be or feel or experience.. everyone is scared of loneliness.. but try asking people who have been lonely wat it feels like.. they are da ones who have been neglected.. they are da one you negelct and they know wat it feels like..

sUmtimes.. they dun retaliate not becasue they`re scared.. well maybe sumtimes.. but sumtimes.. they dun retaliate because to them ur cowards.. you`re too afraid of feeling lonely and experiencing wat they are feeling..

hOnestly speaking i think everyone has felt lonely before.. whetehr it`s becasue you`ve broken up or sumone left you broken hearted or maybe even becasue your parents neglect you.. everyone needs sumone to confide in.. even da bullys they need sumone to confide in.. they are big in skewl but at home they`re merely just an ant..

sO back to da topic.. who do you think of?? a guy in your class? skewl? a gal in ur tuition? how bout a fat gurl whom has caught ur attention casue you love fat gurls.. kekexx.. rubbish la weiling.. hmmm..i`m tokin to myself again.. hmmm.. i think of good fwens in 2d when i`m lonely in my class.. when i quarrel wif my mom i think bout.. hmmm.. let mi think.. think about dieing.. hahaxx.. not anione.. you?? kekexx.. hmmm aniwaex.. go think about it.. i gtg.. peace out ppl..

== sorrie peepx no song tonight veh tired ==

:: lOvE Or lIfE ::

2005-03-16T21:13:00.000-08:00

iN life many things happen that we wanna just go back in tym fer.. we wanna change it.. change wat things were like.. change behaviours.. have we ever really thought bout going to da future to see how things would realli turn out.. for example.. if there is a genie who saes he will grant you three wishes and your first wish is to have a million more wishes.. has anione ever thought how you are gonna cum up with a million wishes.. being wise is crucial in society, life, love..

lOve happens in life and these are uncontrollable things.. you can choose to ignore ya feelings or you can choose to face it and do sumthin bout it.. would you choose life or love.. meaning.. if you love this person so so deaply.. and even though you knew that person would detroy your career and you`d probably spend da rest of your life living in fear or running away from sumthin.. or would you drop that person and live your life lyk it never happened..

bEing wise is not just about doing the right thing.. sumtimes its about doin the wrong things to learn frm it and have experience hence forth not just telling ppl i dun know i`ve nvr done it.. sumtimes its more than that sumtimes its doing sumthing spontaneous.. sumthing maybe not special to others but to you yourself..

== tO thE brokeN hearteD ==
One more kiss could be the best thing
But one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I deserve

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Let me go

I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm goin through

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Just Let me go...
Let me go

And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside I know
I know..When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows

You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know Who I am
So let me go
Just let me go

And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know who I am
And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know me

> sO to anione whom i have left broken hearted i`m realli sorrie.. this song is fer you <

=)( wHeRe i Do i sTaNd )(=

2005-03-15T21:42:00.001-08:00

hMmmm in life we often care bout wat others think about us.. we wanna know where we stand in their board of friends.. having few friends is a probem.. having mani fwens is also a problem.. thinking where we stand and where our fwens should stand.. we give social standings to our fwens.. why? to make known to others that we are great fwens? or to tell ppl and show them that he or she is just an ordinary person hi bye thats it.. thats the furthest we`re going in this conversation..

sO we carry on wif our daily lives using this marginalising technique.. does it ever offend anione.. we give higher standing to peepx we like and fer girls we give them higher and higher till it reaches a limit where nothing can go beyond.. howeva fer guyx.. we can go further than with galx.. and soon it gets higher and higher till we neglect our galfwens.. is it called love?infatuation? we dont really know.. we can tell but we`re too afraid to see if its love or infatuation..

lOoking at most peepx.. we group people in such a way where no one can cross this boundary between me and my fwens.. they`re my fwens and you`re not one of em so get lost.. sumtimes we get new fwens and we neglect old fwens.. is that it? you will ask.. after such a long fwenship? that`s it? now it`s tym to test whetehr you forget that fwen or you confront and talk to tht person about how you feela dn get things straight and right.. so wat would you do??

--for you--
I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think i dont look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weakIts true
Cuz im afarid to know the awnsers
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

Ive waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So i wont hideIts time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life ive waiting
This is true

You dont know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
Im afarid to moveIm weak
Its true
Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?

Ive waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So i will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life ive waited

This is true

I know when i go ill be on my way to you
The way thats true

Ive waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So i will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life ive waitied

This is true

=)( wHeRe i Do i sTaNd )(=

2005-03-15T21:42:00.000-08:00

:: hAvE YoU SeEn mI STuDy ::

2005-03-14T21:27:00.000-08:00

hMmmm.. have you seen me study? hmmm i have but not as much as i did todae.. i studyied fer like 5 hours todae.. and then showered.. watched tv.. ate the here i am now typing.. letting my heart out on the net.. hmmm.. i figured i`ve screwed up the first part of my sec 3 life.. i`ll always rememebr the first term of my sec 3 life sucked pretty bad.. i screwed up.. my fwens got angry.. my fwens drifting.. my life crashing.. the only thing getting better is my pool.. and swimming.. all da stupid things that arent even of use in my career.. hmmm.. but thnk gawd my fwens part is getting better we getting along.. how eva a greater part is missing.. so.. i furgured.. if i studied kept my self occupied.. wouldnt i be drowning my sorrowsfer 5 hours??!!

nOw listening to da song break away by kelly clarkson..hmmm love this song.. and its meanings are.. woaw.. kekexx.. hmmm.. i`ll be posting the lyrics after i finish this post.. hmmmm.. ppl sae a lot that they dun think mean a lot.. however.. it can realli hurt.. even if its not sumthing they sae.. it can be sumthing they do.. like their actions.. how they are around you.. we arent aware of how much it actually means to that person.. i want life to be back.. pool.. best friend.. 3 close fwens..all my 2003 c galx.. we were like a family.. we still are onli we`re living in different continents all over the world.. its not like that but it sure feels like it..

lIfe is full of merry things.. mine isnt i sure hope its cuming soon.. the onli tyms when i realli felt happy was when i was with my best fwen and when i was playing pool.. hmmm.. dancing.. spiking and i did it well.. i cant spike animore.. hmmm.. stupid things.. i cant even realli imagine i`ll ever have again.. hmph.. sutimes i`m glad that stuff happen to avoid hurting others+myself.. emotionally maybe even physically.. hmph.. so i just wanna sae.. enjoy it while it lasts.. if it lasts.. you`re realli lucky..

>-//bReAkAwAy\\-<

2005-03-14T21:23:00.000-08:00

Grew up in a small town,
And when the rain would fall down,
I'd just stare out my window.
Dreaming of what could be,
And if I'd end up happy,
I would pray.

Trying hard to reach out,
But when I tried to speak out,
Felt like no-one could hear me.
Wanted to belong here,
But something felt so wrong here.
So I'd pray,
I could break away.

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky,
And I'll make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun,
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away

Wanna feel the warm breeze,
Sleep under a palm tree,
Feel the rush of the ocean,
Get onboard a fast train,T
ravel on a jetplane,
Faraway, and break away.

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky,
And I'll make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun,
I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I've gotta take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.

Buildings with a 100 floors,
Swinging around revolving doors,
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me.
But I gotta keep moving on moving on,
Fly away, break away.

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,
Though its not easy to tell you goodbye.
Gotta take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun,
But I won't forget the place I come from.
I've gotta take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away

Break away, break away

:: nObOdY`S HoMe :: i wIsH YoU WeRe ::

2005-03-13T21:47:00.000-08:00

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
I's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside

Open your eyes and look outside, find a reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah

:: wHaT ReAlLi hUrtS :: lOvE??!! oR LosInG A GoOd fWen??!!

2005-03-12T17:17:00.000-08:00

sUmtimes in life you have ups and down.. lets face it.. no one`s life is perfectly perfect.. somehow.. mine hass never been perfect not a perfect dae perfect birthdae perfect outing perfect anithing.. so like many people do.. we continue searching.. searching for a perfect sumthing.. perfect love perfect job perfect results perfect family perfect career.. mi, i continue searching for a perfect moment not a lot just a perfect moment.. it seems like.. wat???!! she`s so stupid a perfect moment??!! why not a perfect sumthing that would be long lasting... well to mi.. a perfect moment itself is sumthing difficult to achieve.. why set a target so high.. no one can achieve..

lAst night i was talking to sumone via sms.. this person to mi used to be my best friend.. if you knew me very well.. in my eyes, no ne is my best friend onli a gud fwen and thats the furthest you can go.. but he was da perfect friend.. we used to meet on tuesdaes thursdaes and sometimes saturdaes after our volleyball trainings.. sumhow this seemingly lasting friendship turned into sumthing bigger.. we fell for each other.. i refused to accept both the fact and him.. casue i knew i wasnt realli good enouf for him.. and now, as i live on, i live with this regret.. i refuse to live with regrets except this one..

iT seriously is better to do someting and regret it than not do it and regret it.. casue if you dont you would never know never haf known wat it felt or feels like.. and then slowly a part of you disappears.. i doesnt realli disappear.. it just feels empty and this hole be comes bigger and bigger and bigger until you start changing and realise that you have to step up.. before everything is gone.. i did it and everything is gone.. the guy.. his friends maybe.. his peepx.. but.. sumhow. certain things are not lost.. things like regret and remorse..

aLl good things must cum to an end right.. i sure didnt want it to end.. it was like he was my everything.. everything to mi everything to my fantasy.. sumhow it stops.. after tis who knows wat may happen.. pick up bad habits to drown your sorrows?? drinking?? smoking?? clubbing all nite till dae?? leaving home?? attempted suicide?? kekexx.. dun worrie no ones committing suicide.. so eveythings fell. has fallen and continues to fall until all memories are lost.. when will that be??? till death do us part?? or till you find anoher special sumone??

aLl this is consequence to rumors that spread.. a small rumor such as she slept with many people.. a 5 word rumor can lead to caos.. not that it was that specific rumor.. listening to a song: lyrics- you love me but you dont know who i am.. mani ppl wouldnt understand it can easily and simply mean you have fallen for mi but you dont know me well enuf to avoid these things going on around you from corrupting you??!! is that love??!! is that infatuation?? or is it just passing time??.. tots and reason lingering can tell different things bout you.. who you are.. the person that you are.. the friend that you are.. the emotions that you have..

sO end todae wif da tot that a simple rumor can do much harm.. hurt and if you were the person how would you feel?? and all good things cum to an end.. just like my life.. a series of never ending unfortunate events..

:: sYnErGy :: SkEwL:: mAmA ::

2005-03-11T21:45:00.000-08:00

heyx everyone mi back again.. hmmm.. so fucked up sia.. mama keep scolding and scolding.. doesnt she realise that her scolding will onli make us venture deeper in to wat she doesnt want us to becum.. gawd.. wat a mother.. i know i shouldnt be critisizing her and stuff.. but she`s so fuckingly tense.. she`s so ignorant of todaes modern society and its teens..

hMMMM.. yesterdaes synergy was boring but i loved the dance and the band.. hated the chior not its peepx but its just so weak.. got hian peng.. i peng siaxx.. hmmmm.. so farni.. then went ta play pool wif leslie and dwayne and li ling.. hmmmm later saw sherlyn and su ann and han yang and bevan and jian hao and his fwen.. hmmm.. then went there wif leslie they all in cab hmph.. met wif luke then frm there both of us watch together then leave together.. and to all da peepx who think theres sumthin.. hmmm.. theres nothin.. haha.. ya imagination too wild le larxx.. soh keng make us walk frm city hall to chinatown hahaxx.. one hour siaxx.. i heels haha.. hmmm.. then so funni half way give up take mrt go home.. hehexx..

i would love to go synergy experimenting wif different peepx.. kekexx.. saw mani peepx.. stay wif them then my friend buy imported cigarrettes haha not nice haha.. i peng laugh at him.. i mean marlboro red??!! ..todae purposely go skewl late then so farni everyone studying i walk into class.. hahaxx.. no need ta bring song book and other excess.. hmmm.. then xin xian from his class shout hahaxx.. bo liao.. however wish i could go to synergy wif another fwen.. hmmm.. but.. dots..

:: lEt mE FaLl iN LOvE WiTh yOu ::

2005-03-09T18:09:00.000-08:00

In open fields of wild flowers,
she breathes the air and flies away
She thanks her Jesus for the daises and the roses
in no simple language
Someday she'll understand the meaning of it all
He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on her lips
Someday she'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call her and she will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and she'll pray,

"I want to fall in love with You''

Sitting silent wearing Sunday best
The sermon echoes through the walls
A great salvation through it calls to the people
who stare into nowhere,
and can't feel the chains on their souls

He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on our lips
Someday we'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call us and we will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and we'll pray,

"I want to fall in love with You"

It seems too easy to call you "Savior",
Not close enough to call you "God"
So as I sit and think of words I can mention
to show my devotion

"I want to fall in love with You"

"my heart beats for You"

:: hAvEnT sEeN ThE BeAuTy oF LiFe ::

2005-03-09T17:58:00.000-08:00

hMmM.. my life was just getting better when bam!!! it got so much worse off.. hmmm.. i feel so fucked up about everything.. sumtimes you feel a sense of emptiness, youre muddled up.. but sumtimes you dun wanna tell anibody.. well i`m kinda like tt.. its not that i dun wanna tell anione.. its that no one will understand no one will be there no one would care.. sumtimes i miss death by just an inch and i have no freakin idea why.. i nearly got hit by a truck one afternoon when listening to music.. was so bloody angry i blasted it.. then i nearly got banged by this other stupid vehicle near my house and then my wrist was slit before and i was walking and this gy cutting trees dropped his 'scissors' right before mi.. hmmm.. why??!! people die everydae.. hmmm my mom screamed at mi then other dae and saed you`ve still got 50 odd years more.. and i was like no you dunno casue you dun mould my life.. hmmm..

My new close friends verena and sherlyn, totally hate mi.. cause we saw this skirt and i said i liked it but i may not buy it casue many ppl have it and i said you shouldnt buy it casue mani ppl have it.. but if you wanna go ahead.. so i changed my mind and bought it.. she was furious at mi and said that i told her not to buy it and i bought it.. i mean wat??!!! i said buy it if you like.. wat you buy in the end is none of my business.. so she bought da skirt and i thought the onli way to make her cool off a lil was to back off and let her wear it fer synergy.. she`s gonna wear it but shes still angry.. i dunno wat to do.. and as usual no one wans to listen to this bitch(me) casue she`s nothin to anione.. well all i can sae is congratulations you`re sumone and you sure know how to be a sumone.. fer mi.. my dad calls me stupid fer even thinkning that i can go jc my mama calls mi stupid fer passing my sec 2 e maths by only a few marks when everyone else fails.. my maid screams at mi and caned mi when i was young my bro punches mi trying wwe stunts on mi my sis yells at mi when she`s angry at my om.. well go ahead casue i`m just a nobady in this would.. i`m just a low life 14 year old gal with nothin better to do than to ask her friend to accept her apology..

she wont i know she wont.. i sae i love all my friends.. i love all of my friends more.. so much more than i love siblings.. and you sae its not true.. if its not true.. why would i be seeking forgiveness.. all i`m asking is fer this friendship back.. its only term one we`ll be in the same class fer 2 years.. i realli wanna end this dispute..

life sux.. even at crucial tyms, you get i possible things happening to you.. how could i have used you if i was asking fer a favour.. when i eh.. furget it.. no one will get it any wae..

::: i miss blogging:::

2005-01-12T18:23:00.000-08:00

fuck.. my com is spoilt again.. hmmm.. now at sheena`s house blogging.. hmmm.. i feellike i realli miss scoo.. aniwae.. now back i dun realli like waking up so early.. my stupid mama like dun let me go aniwere.. hmmm.. so sadzz.. ani howz.. cannot type too long... firstlynothin to write about seconndly i rushin.. anihowzz.. stay chilledpeepx..

:::tOdAe:::

2004-11-24T22:03:00.000-08:00

Hmmm.. todae was kinda fun.. er.. went out with nana a.k.a sheena.. kekexx.. hmmm.. sooo much fun went bugis and heeren.. hmmm..bOuGht quite some stuff.. hmmm.. and there was this woman with this huge ass and sheena wanted to take picture make me laugh so loud everyone lookin at mi.. hmmm.. bought ear rings.. and saw bikini`sssss.. kekex.. hmmm..came home played basketball.. kekexx.. tt guy soooo bad dun wan mi to block or tackle him then take off his shirt.. toooooo bad.. i still block you.. kekex.. hmmm.. my sis finished her contract with her first job and started a second one.. so envious of her.. doin graphics designing.. hmmm.. but i wanna be an accurist.. hmmm.. can earn a lot worxx.. vikki wanna be gyni hmmm.. sheena dunno wat she wans ta be.. hmmm.. very few ppl got ambitions.. i think everyone should have cause at least they got sumthin to work towards.. hmmm.. i got one fwen who wans to be accountant and two who wanna be gyni six who wanna be lawyers.. i wanted to be a lawyer b4 budden s`pore oso nothin then other countries must study their kinda law hmmm.. so accurist bi jiao hao bahxx.. aniwae.. should be goin.. ___stay chilled peepz____ [L]ing5

:::tOdAe:::

2004-11-16T11:44:00.000-08:00

waHhHh.. now waiting fer my piano cher.. wah tt woman everdae oversleep.. but i lyk her.. kekekxx.. timing very flexible de.. can move lesson here.. move lesson there.. hmmm.. oh yeah... i came up with dance steps.. cool huh... anihowz.... ppl tag lehxx.. otherwise my blog not nice le.. ;p hmmmm...in case ya dunno.. you dun own blog oso can tag.. hmmmm just leave ya name..passport no.... and no. so i can tag back.. kekexx.. jkjk..
nothin bad`s happened todae except fer my bro trying to wake me up.. dam tt was horrible.. he kept using da pillow to wack mi.. how lame.. aniwae.. i love tyra banks!!! she`s hot.. plus heidi clump or wat eva you spell it.. and not forgetting gisele bunchen..hmmmm '' in this skirt??? i dun think so'' kekexx..
all fans of da show taxi would just love tt line.. hmmmm..nothin to sae le.. anywae to ya guys readin this.._________stay chilled_______ [L]ing5

:::So dAnG CoNfUsED:::

2004-11-12T22:22:00.000-08:00

hEy yA`Ll......---------------> da past few days really suck.. now so fucked up wif my mama.. she`s like you can go fer dance and vb meetings but no lunch.. you cum home fer lunch.. f*** her lorxx.. hmmm anihow.. i`ve decided to quit vb.. jeezzzz.. dun ask mi why but yea.. i think fer once i`m realli doin sumthin wrong.. i`ve been tryin to tell my mom.. that she being there fer mi is not she making the decision fer mi and if anithin goes wrong.. she cums to my rescue.. if she wants to be there fer mi.. it`s gotta be my decision and sumthin goes wrong and she`s there fer mi.. but it`s never happened b4... lets get to the point.. she`s neva been there fer mi and now she saes that she`s always been there fer mi??.. totally......just crap.. hmmm
Miss jeri soooooo much.. she`s lyk away.. without mi!!!.. haha.. nehzz.. jkjk... away.. sumwhere.. hmmmm i know where.. hmmm the toher dae there`s this freaky guy he called my house and asked fer my dad.. i said sorry but he`s not in.. tt guy was lyk oh.. are you his daughter and i was lyk hell yea.. haha.. he said how old are you.. i was lyk....SORRY THATS CONFIDENTIAL.. CASUE IT`S NO USE TO YOU ..dang he was lyk... <<>>
Todae was lyk dancing haha and crystal she kept givin mi dat look lyk seduction was taking place.. klekexx.. she`s..kewl..but...somehow she`s hotter than kewl.. kekexx.. hmmm... another one of da thaaaangs tt happened todae were... mi goin around tm fer 5 mins with dwayne,sheena,crystal,vik...dang those guyz were big.. i felt sooooo small..
OKOK..so... which class am i goin to??!! hmmm 3c.. dang i tot i was goin to sumwhere beyond paradise lyk.. 3d or 3f.. hmmmm so subs i`ll be takin?? comb phy and chem.. a and e mathx..poa..history..ss....otherxx.. kinda same.. hmmm dam it.. historys like a total killer.. hmmm..my hist nearly fail and i`m takin hist.. thay wan mi to die.. but i prefer it to geog casue compared my interest is in war.. forms of torture.. hahaxx.. jkjk.. i cant even stand fear factor sometimes.. hmmm.. i`m full of sympathy fer em...

anihows.. gtg.. tata..hmmmm...sly rocks!!!!!-----sTaY ChILLeD---

::shet head::

2004-10-18T22:15:00.000-07:00

hmmm looking at da world go round rox.. this world iz becumin greater.. kekexx.. hmmm my nick? shet head?? means shithead actually.. hmmm its dam screwed up... how i got tt name? yeah its screwed up.. hmmm.. dam irritated casue of this crazy lil viruz in mi comp and er.. yeah.. msn is totally crazy le.. hmmm.. dam it lor.. ani howzz..my new tag boards up go all of ya peeeepzz out dere.. suit cha self out.. hmmm go crazy.. flood my tag.. or wateva juz have a great tym seein mi bloggie k?? hmmm hmmm hmmm.. so darn bored.. tatz it u know.. my comz givin mi such a prob.. i cant contol it.. i haf to like..reformat da freakin com.. hmmm.. dunno y.. i started bein vulgar since yesterdae.. dam pissed. im not supposed to be pissed but i`m pissed shock not pissed angry but pissed shoked.. get it? dam i dun even get myself.. hmmm just now went ta josephs house fer dance then i was like so blur then i chilled out.. drank a few cups of pepsi then dam i picked upo da moves so faz i couldnt even think of anithin else.. thnkx germaine ann. couldnt haf done it wifout her.. and thnx to jazy fer starin mi taggie.. hmmm.. but no thnx to tt few persons who made mi pissed <> kekexx..
well dunno watta sae le.. if i carry on will be dam vulgar.. dun belief ask jas i can be really vulgar aniwae.. gtg.. tata all ya peepz... ----->----- [L]ing5

<>

2004-10-17T23:14:00.000-07:00

hmMm.. tOdAe?? A VeWi uSuAl dAe eXCepT FEr OnE Bit oF It... fElT kinda well.. extrmely wierd.. hmmm jeri should know.. but any how.. have you eva felt lyk ur gud fwen baked u in an oven? lyk somewat betrayed?? hmmm i know sum of us have.. aniwae.. fuck the bloody mother fucker out of any betrayer.. at least tt should make mi and those betrayed happi.. by a lil.. aniwae.. watched a show todae.. wimbledon.. gawd.. it was amazing.. i could take my eyes off tt huge screen and ofter the movie.. got a shock of my life.. hmmm remained silent and calm.. kekexx.. i`m good at it.. anihow.. hmmm.. so.. if u cum across a betrayer.. dun feel bad about goin against him or her.. hmmm.. anihow.. todae was kinda ok.. couldnt eat.. couldnt think right.. couldnt walk straight.. aniwae.. sum wat.. i think that life rawks becuz it just rawks.. gawd my fwens would be lyk shocked and happi to see mi write::life rawks:: my dad screamin behind mi.. smses cumin in.. i dun wanna read or reply.. hmmm suck it siazz.. hmmm.. dam i just wish i had so much freedom.. i`d be lyk at my fwens house now on her bed watchin tv wif her.. hmmm.. then again to sum male Chauvinist pigs..i`m jus sum low life gal who doesnt haf freedom and cant stay out late.. lemme tell u this if it werent for us gals.. you would be nothin.. the galz are just ur lil toys to play around wif.. find a new toy.. stash da old wan awae..hmmmm dream on.. no one`s gonna be there if ur such a loser.. the other dae.. my aunt looked into my eyes.. she said da frewakiest thing.. she said this child is full of anger.. how the bloddy bollokz does she know tt.. gawd.. she`s a smart ass.. hmmm anihow.. sorry.. todae i`m kinda freaked out.. so tt explain why i`m so worked up.. and fucked up..

::hMmMm::

2004-10-13T11:17:00.000-07:00

now at vic`s house usin her com..yesterdaes math ppr waz kinda okay..todae?? chinese ppr waz like a complete filure..kekexx..hmmm..prepared to fail it..hmmm ppr was 1.5 hours and i took .5 hours to do it slept fer1 hour.. so psyched.. hmmm..yesterdae at toy`r` us saw tt pink lady.. she dam bhb lorxx.. sae a lot of rich men wanna jio her.. my gawd.. hmmm she saee her boyfriends heart very gud .. dun even think she haf lor.. hmmm hahah imaginery de.. hmmm..
this blog here.. must really thank sheena tan.. thnx jie.. she yaught mi almost everything on blogspot..hmmm later going pasir ris to go bowling.. kewl.. my mama actually allowed// can you believe it??!! hmmm dream cum true.. kekexx..hmmm.. aniwaez.. hmmm. got so much pressure on mi lorxx.. hmmm.. feel totally sick now.. hmmm like gonna barf ani min.. aniwaez.. to all of ya out there.. stay chilled.. lurve ya loads.. thnx fer readin mi blog.. gonna haf a tag board soon.. chill.. [L]ing5

::bUt i dO LoVe yA::

2004-10-06T18:23:00.000-07:00

I don't like to be alone at night
And I don't like to hear I'm wrong when I'm right
And I don't like to have the rain on my shoes
But I do love you
But I do love you

I don't like to see the sky painted grey
And I don't like when, nothin's goin my way
And I don't like to be the one with the blues
But I do love you
But I do love you

I love everything about the way your lovin me
The way you lay your head upon shoulder when you sleep
And I love to kiss you in the rain
I love everything you do
I do

And I don't like to turn the radio on
Just to find I missed my favorite song
And I don't like to be the last with the news
But I do love you
But I do love you

I love everything about the way your lovin me
The way you lay your head upon shoulder when you sleep
And I love to kiss you in the rain
I love everything you do
I do

And I don't like to be alone at night
And I don't like to hear I'm wrong when I'm right
And I don't like to have the rain on my shoes
But I do love you
But I do love you
But I do love you
But I do love you

::sO GOiN OuT To aLl vB GaLz oF YeAr 2003... We rAwK aNd wIlL CaRrY On rOcKiN!! oH YeAh.. hMmM.. aNiWaE WhO EvA REaDs ThIs gEt A LiL BIt oF LoVe ;p HeLl yEaH!! StAy cHiLlEd pEePz::

::dAm It::

2004-10-02T13:17:00.000-07:00

Hmmm..my English paper yesterdae I think was a total failure lorxx..hmmm I think I flunked it..especially da compo..compre was kinda ok..dam it lorxx..sure die de lorxx..hmmm..next is geog I think I fail le la..life totally sux with or without exams..cuz no matter wat I do.. it`ll nvr be enof fer aniwan..especially my mama..dam it lorxx..such a pain in da butt

Hmmm..freakin angry wif my freakin sista too..ishouter I hate you at her..and I DUN REGRET IT..sofuck lor she..dam it..hmmm I not usin phone oso muz tell mi mama then mi mama confiscate..i dun think I`ll eva tell her I`m on da hpone eva again fer nothing lorxx..hmmm feel lyk spiking her head off.. and if I do I`ll make sure I ping piang..

Hmmm the whole world`s just tumbling down ..and the earth is shakin.. gawd how I waish god was on earth and adam and eve hadn’t started sin then da whole world would be perfect..hmmm..

Then tt freakin JANE SEE confiscate my book fer no apparent reason siazz.. then lata I ask fer it back frm her she sae wait must scold tt poor boy firzz.. stupid woman got a bloody mood swing siazz..hmmm so racist and sadistic..goodness dunno why so many ppl lyk her lorxx..

::dAm It::

2004-10-01T21:09:00.000-07:00

::piECeS Of mE??!!::

2004-09-29T19:25:00.000-07:00

On a Monday, I am waiting
Tuesday, I am fading
And by Wednesday, I can't sleep
Then the phone rings, I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cuz you've come to rescue me

Fall... With you, I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath, I hope it lasts

Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you've known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

I am moody, messy
I get restless, and it's senseless
How you never seem to care

Fall... Sometimes I fall so fast
Well, I hit that bottom
Crash, you're all I have

Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

How do you know everything I'm about to say?
Am I that obvious?
And if it's written on my face...
I hope it never goes away... yeah

On a Monday, I am waiting
And by Tuesday, I am fading into your arms...
So I can breathe

Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you've know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me...

::aT ThE BeGiNinG::

2004-09-25T23:09:00.000-07:00

We were strangers
Starting out on a jouney
Never dreaming
What we'd have to go through
Now here we are
And I'm suddenly standing
At the begining with you

No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected
What you did to my heart
When I lost hope You were there to remind me
This is the start

Life is a road
And I want keep to going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a raod
Now and forever
Wounderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end
I wanna be standing
At the begining with you

We were strangers
On a crazy adventure
Never dreaming
How our dreams would come true
Now here we stand
Unafraid of the future
At the begining with you

I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
Now I now my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's ganna tear us apart

Life is a road and
I wanna keep
I wanna keep going on
Starting out on a journey

Life is a road and
I wanna keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing In the end
I wanna be standing at the begining with you

::eNdInG??::

2004-09-24T16:41:00.000-07:00

So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hangin'
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of our memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of our memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of our memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending

So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending

::rEaSoNs::

2004-09-22T21:26:00.000-07:00

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learningI never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why I need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4
]I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

::stUpIDiTy::

2004-09-20T22:27:00.001-07:00

Something was wrong but i failed to see it.. goodness how stupid can i get..hmmm lyk so dam blind lor..now in com lab watching dunno wat merger stuff on history of s`pore.. hmmm lee kwan yew rawks man.. hmmm so glad they voted fer him.. kekexx..
Ten things i hate about guyz is..they`re jerks..dun think..sensitive..assholes..most are nerds..ppl biased to them..they think they`re so big..they think they rule..they`re nothin..they`re flirts..
Until now some ppl dun underrstand wat i`m doin..hmmm do you really think i`m tt stupid??!! wel maybe but not that stupid..goodness..so mad with ya.. and ya still dunno..goodness..
Punk?? you?? think again sia..
I have friends so much betta lorxx.. hmmm think b4 you do siaxx
Dun do anithin stupid lorxx..hmmm so angry..especially wif YOU

::stUpIDiTy::

2004-09-20T22:27:00.000-07:00

Something was wrong but i failed to see it.. goodness how stupid can i get..hmmm lyk so dam blind lor..now in com lab watching dunno wat merger stuff on history of s`pore.. hmmm lee kwan yew rawks man.. hmmm so glad they voted fer him.. kekexx..
Ten things i hate about guyz is..they`re jerks..dun think..sensitive..assholes..most are nerds..ppl biased to them..they think they`re so big..they think they rule..they`re nothin..they`re flirts..
Until now some ppl dun underrstand wat i`m doin..hmmm do you really think i`m tt stupid??!! wel maybe but not that stupid..goodness..so mad with ya.. and ya still dunno..goodness..
Punk?? you?? think again sia..
I have friends so much betta lorxx.. hmmm think b4 you do siaxx
Dun do anithin stupid lorxx..hmmm so angry..especially wif YOU

::hOw i`m fEeLiNg??::

2004-09-20T09:30:00.000-07:00

What are you doing tonight
I wish I could be a fly on your wall
Are you really alone
Still in your dreams
Why can't I bring you into my life
What would it take to make you see that I'm alive

If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invisible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait..I already am)

I saw your face in the crowd
I called out your name
You don't hear a sound
I keep tracing your steps
Each move that you make
Wish I could be what goes through your mind
Wish you could touch me with the colors of your life

If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invisible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait..I already am)

I reach out
But you don't even see me
Even when I'm screaming
Baby, you don't hear me
I am nothing without you
Just a shadow passing through...

If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invisible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait..I already am)

::fAlLiNg iN AnD OuT Of lOve::

2004-09-19T21:04:00.000-07:00

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within I've been there before
But that life's a bore So full of the superficial
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you
Some people search for a fountain
Promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them
And in a world on a silver platter
And wondering what it means
No one to share, no one who truly cares for me
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you
If I ain't got you with me baby
Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

::sOmEtHiNgS!!iisOmEtImEs::

2004-09-18T22:59:00.000-07:00

yOu wErE eVeRyThIOn tHaT I WaNtEd..We wErE MeAnT To bE bUt i dUn wAnT yA AnImOrE!!

::aCcIdEnTaLlY In lOvE::

2004-09-15T21:25:00.000-07:00

Actually, frankly speakin,,todae was kinda abnormal...mama didnt scream...sista kept playin irritating games wif mi..maid just shutted up todae.. hMmM looks like it`s a wierd dae!!
Cool...tat means i can play da com...watch tv....do my stuff without being scolded.. gawd dun you just love god and his mysterious plans.. oh yeah..
Counting crows....accidentally in love.. rawkz.. da title applies to most of our lives.. especially now in this century.. gawd i`m becumin so darn sophisticated.. goodness... must be cause of joseph`s presence...
I think that todae was extremely wierd casue also suddenly rememebrin.. early in da mornin G.A.L actually joked with mi.. gaawd.. she`z lame siazz.. y did deeeeee scoo gib mi this cher siazz..
Den cum to think of it...haha todae my class and 2f team up siazz.. make da cher so dam confused then admit tt she dunno who is 2d who is 2f lame lor tt cher.. then sabo tt genevieve... crazy asshole lor tt freak.. hmmmm goodness i`m cruel but i like it.. kekexx...
Enden dad was home todae.. wierd home yesterdae and todae.. kewl.. kinda miss his presence.. he`s like always the one who covers me frm my mama..not sae dada`s gal casue sometimes i get scolded.. plus.. then time he hit mi... i`ll nvr forget..
Needless to say.. in da com lab todae.. hahaxx.. i play music then da whole claz follow then chao noisy siazz..hmph..
Todae is one dae i`ll nvr forget casue of the richness in joy it has and the impact it has brought to my life..hahaxx.. then use da wrappin papaer beat genevieve butt.. hahazz.. tt`s da way jas..hehexx..
At last we cum to da sad point where...desicisions i think are not meant to be made.. hmmm like counting da library windows to 13 then u get ta see da ghost.. tats a desicion i made.. hmmm but i didnt see anithin but i felt somethin looking at us.. gudness..
Later must call my piano cher.. hmmm i dunno wat to write le.. budden must write so much more.. hmmm
Lately i`ve been thinking..about life and how it sux.. and da great times you fial and u cant do anithin bout it.. then turn to god and seek advice sometimes i do that... hahaxx.. see prophesizing'' again..
Ya ya.. hmmm definitly nothin to write but must blabber on..

I think in order to do your project jasmine.. you have to put da pillow in and measure.. measure le.. then take out and sew..
Never gib up k gal??!! hmmm peservere.....casue it`s da key to success hehexx..

Lst stanza le.. hmmmm... my mama was lyk tokin to mi about guyz todae.. so dam wierd lyk as if i dunno wwat is guy wat is gal lyk tt wah she still explain wat brother and sista.. goodness..
Of course she`s concerned but i`m more concerned fer her than she is fer mi.. lyk as if i so small dunno how to take care of myself.. hmmmm at least i can do betta than mi sista..hmmm
Very difficult to live life siazz.. hmmmlyk so many things pulling you down lyk tt... dunno how some ppl can live until 103 years old or more than that.. i feel more sympathy fer them then joyfulness
Yeah last para..hmmm so just remmeeber perservere or howeva u spell it casue it`s da key to success.. hmmmm and nvr give up... and trust god..

HmPh!!!!..WhY!!!

2004-09-10T19:30:00.000-07:00

Mondae starting scoo.. ai yah.. sianzz.. hmmm but anihow... sec 2`s jia you bahzz.. hahazz.. like as if anione can hear mi!!! hmmm feel so bloody stressed my mama cant stop nagging and blah blah blah,..
I think this tym she realli wans me to do well in my exams cuz it`z like to her streaming is half wae through life.. gawd!!! afraid to think of o`s hmmm oh yeah.. to all sec 4 and 5 guyz.. cummon man!!! you can do it.. jia you bahzzz..
Sometimes.. you`ve got to make a difference for yourself.. whether it is to studies or anithin else.. unlike someone like me..i prefer to wait cuz i dun have da courage to do anithin fer my self except fight fer my rights.. hmmm especially with tt coach screamin!!!
Sometimes it`s just hard to move on but you`ve gotta move on learnin from your past mistakes... makin changes fer da betta.. hmmm doin and makin a difference.. casue thats one thing i`v not done in a long long time..
I was so frustrated with that coach todae.. he was like screamin at us fer playin da way we did.. gosh... rememeber.. without a vb team like us... you`d not be paid to teach or coach us.. and u cant tell ppl wat to do with their personal life.. man.. you`ve just gotta control yourself you old hag.. goodness no wife then treat us like this
Never give up never give up isnt that wat you`vbe been telling us??!! being frustrated is different from having the confidence to play.. you are our team`s weakness.. trust mi if the vb galz.. knew that i had a blog.. they`d all agree..
Generally... todae was an okay dae fer most of us especially mi.. heard my mother scream.... checked... maid nagg..... chaecked.... sista screamin... checked... nagging to take muti vitamins....checked... hmmm... piano nagging....checked...study check...no tv..check...

Yesterdae was not that gud.. hmmm just when you need encouragement.. he gives you discouragement.. hmmm how ironic.. Ahhhhhh!!! mosquito!!! hmmm.. dun make a mistake and wait... regretting it all you`re life man!!!n especially tt sir scold then sae sorry muz as well not scold right??!!!.. it`s betta o fix it straight away then morn in sorrowful tears and memories,,
oH yeah tomorrow got trg.. hmmm volleyball fotr three straight daes siazz..
Understand now??!! why my life is patheitc?? hmmm aniwae if you`re readin this maybe you`ll understand meaning`s beyond words.. or wat eva or how eva you`d phrase it..

2004-09-09T19:58:00.000-07:00

hmmm todae was kinda fun especially at trg.. oh my gawd.. tt wongie right.. nearly nearly nearly slap jin lian so poor thing.. i tell u if he`d lay one finger on her face i`m gonna beat him up lor.. he`s lyk in no freakin position to slap her!!! hmph.. dam kuku lor he den be referee then blow da whistle eEeEe!!! nvr gonna use tt whistle eva again.. goodness..if he lays one filthy finger \on anione`s face horxx.. he betta watch it lor.. we`re gonna haunt him fer da rest of his daes.. kekexx..
todae trg was kinda ok cuz i played kekexx.. not lyk just sitting in one corner staring into space.. then those band emembers.. crazy de lor.. sae wat rainbow in da sky then surround mi and push mi into one corner.. lyk i dun exist lyk tt am i dat small??!!!!!! hmmmm
then tt <> keep trying to spike and ping piang.. haiz... tell u wad??.. my team da tifanny may be shorter than u but she can play so much betta than u lor.. although you no need to jump can ping piang... she jump can slam straight down right below da net.. :PPPPPP think you all so great.. see me only diao lai diao qu... fine.. in da end 5 sets one oso u nvr win.. hmmm
ok ok.. dun be so mean animore.. hmmm.. a lil bit of philosophy.. missing someone hurts more than talkin to tt person but not lookin at tt person.. if u get wad i mean.. hmmm.. if only.... if only.. if only..

HmMm sickening WorLRd siAz.. TiReD Of liFe

2004-09-08T15:46:00.000-07:00

TodAe wAS A DaM bOrInG dAe lOR.. NvR GoOuT AgAiN.. SiAnZz.. HmMm sO GoOd loR THaT sTuPiD vb GuYz gOt cHaLeT NvR EvEn iNvIte vB GaLzx.. KeKeXx.. bLoOdY Un fAIr.. HmMm tOmORrOw gOt SiCkEnInG TrG.. HmMM.. sUdENlY I HaTe TrtG So MuCh.. hMmM
yEsTErDaE I WAtChEd seX AnD da cItY.. hAhA IT tOtAlLy rAwKz SiAz.. HmMm jasmine tell mi not to make my font big small so i dun make lor.. hmmm.. somehow if we cum back to decesion making.. somehow i think i`ve made up my mind but i really dunno whether it`s right or not.. over this hol i`ve learnt that making a decision is as difficlut as carrying it out and trying to make ur decision work is lyk even harder.. man this world is so dam dam dam irritating with my mama and all i was trying to practise my piano.. i mean practise makes perfect right? and so i was there practising and she was lyk in da back ground screaming at mi for making mistakes.. she totally psyched.. goodness.. no goin out.. only wanting mi to do HER english ASSESMENTS gawd knows wat eva for.. hmmm... sickening sia.. then its lyk i`m watchin sex and da city and she`s shouting at mi for watching star movies.. crazy lor.. then she cums in and saes i wanna watch sex and da city and i`m lyk already watchin tt.. gudness.. mama ur becumin a really really sikening mama.. no wonder y i call u mama nowadaes.. hmmm.. aniwaes gotts go do some work on mi laptop.. so buh bauiz

HmM..stIlL tHiNkin

2004-09-06T14:26:00.000-07:00

tOdAe wAs SoMeWhAt uSUaL.. HMmM wAs tOrTuReD By mY MaId aNd mY Sis LeCtuReD By my mOm.. DiDnT SeE My fAv bRo aNd DiDNt sEe mI DaD :\( sO SaD.. bUt AnIhOw wOkE uP ExTreMeLy eArLy tOdAe.. lYk AbOUt 8 oR 9 AnD WeNt tO dA SuPeRmArKeT.. NothiN mUcH jUsT A fEw cRaZy WaCkY OlD LAdYs fIGhtInG fOr fIsH.. HmMm AnD Me.. hAd Ta UsE My bArE HaNDs tO PiCk dA StInKiN PrAwNs aNd fIsH.. TaT OlD LaDy kEpT PuShIn Mi I FeLt lYk sWiNgiNg dA FiH To hEr bIg sKiNlEsS FaCe.. kEkExX..
SoMeTIMES yOu`vE JuSt gOtTa tEaCh eM A LeSsOn sO I PuSh hER BAcK... gAwd sHe nEaRLy fElL I WaS lYk lAuGhIn lYk HelL lAtEr wHeN I TurNeD ArOunD.. hMmM i cAlLeD StARhUb aNd guEsS WAt i cAnT AcTiVaTe mY MMS WiThOuT My dAd.. StUpId aNd lAmE AnD.. WaT eVa.. HmMm.. But i boUgHT mEe sIaM aNd gAwD It sMelT GoOd..
nOw My wAcKy SiSta iS Lyk waTcHIn DuNNO WAt sHoW.. BuT EaRlIeR I WAs WAtChIN SeX AnD Da cItY AnD GoONeSS graCiOuS MI.. It waS aWsOMe.. HmM tHiNK I`Ll sIgN Off NOW.. ChAoZz..sTaY CHiLlEd

hMmM..dUnNo wAt tO SaE SiAz

2004-09-04T19:17:00.000-07:00

hMmM..ToDaE Was kInda ok..i dIdNt gO FeR TRg aGAiN..Was sO DaNg TiReD.. HmMm..i ReAlLy wAnNa sAe sOrRy to dArOn tHiS MoRnIng i tOtAlLy fOrGoT.. i oNlY rEmEmBeReD iT LyK At 10.30 WhEn i wOkE Up.. sOwIE!! hMmM KiNdA StArTiNg tO MiSs mUa cLaSMaTes.. hMmMm..i tHiNK I`Ve dEcIdED On sOmEtHiN BuT I JuSt DUnNO hOw tO SaE IT..aNd hMmM..FiLlEd wItH GuIlT Is aLl i fEeL NoW.. jErI!!! I NeEd yOur hElP SiAz.. hMmm.. GoTtA Go..

2004-09-01T18:22:00.000-07:00

tOdAe wAs fReAkInG GooD TiLl My MaId dEcIdEd To MaKe mi ReaL MaD..ShE ToLd Mi tO cOOk..FiNe...tHeN sHe sTaRtEd lEcTuRiNg Mi aBoUt cOoKinG...lIkE As ThOuGh I`M So iGnOrAnt LiKe tHaT.. nExT My sIs hIt mY HeAd IN Da mIddLE oF NOwHeRE..WeLl sOmEwHeRE.. lIKe tAmPiNeS MaLl!!! tHeN My mOm DiDnT LeT Mi gO Out...AnI AfTeR cOoKInG SHe cOuld HaVe saiD tHnX FeR MaKIn This TeAcHeRz dAE mEaL... BuT InStEad<>!!! aRh!!! sO DAm fUrIoUzZZ..nExT I HaVe tHiS RealLi rEaLlI StUpId geoG PrOjEcT.. nOt ThAt It`s sTuPiD But stuPiD CuZ...It`s a hOL AnD mY DeaDLInE iS LiKe tOmOrRoW!!!..arH...sO FrEaKiNg sCreWeD uP RiGhT NOw.. hMmM..
YeSteRdAe`s xcLaS PaRTY WaS LIkE..I DiDnT EvEn tAkE AniThIn..JUST TwO DRiNkS THEn i wenT To gET mY JUnIoRS FoOd cUz mY ClAssMaTes wErE LIKE SAvAgE DoGs.. EsPeCiAlLy That iDioT ::FkT:: HmMM sO FaT Le hAi yAo cHi nA Me DuO!!! aNiWaE I StIlL HaVeNt mADE My ((DiE))CiSiOnS..cUz iTz dRiViNg mI BONkArZZzzZ... i DuN ReAlLi fEeL Lyk gOiN Ta sChOo ToMoRrOW NoT fOrGeTtInG i`vE GoT ThAt frEaKiNG TRg!!!..tHaT IdIoTiC COaCh.. aLl He dOeS Is sIt tHErE sHaKe lEgS aNd ScOlD pPl.. fIghTiNG Fer mY TeaMs rIgHts??!1 I Am!!!!!!! i`vE StOod up To hiM A ThOusanD tImes aNd I`lL Do it AgAiN iF I HaVe tO..sO SO VewI IdIoTiC..lIke As If wE`rE rObOtS..dUn MaKe MiStAkEs..gArH!!!!
bUt....tHeRe Is sOmEtHiNg gOoD To SaE... i plAyEd PooL!!!!! wHeN?? wElL LaSt tHURsDaE lOnG tImE AgO BuT it waS GrEat.. gaWd i jUsT WaNnA PlAy aGAiN.. kEkExXX...gTG NoW.. StAy chIlLeD

sOmEhOw..sOmEtImES...SoMeWAy

2004-08-29T18:16:00.000-07:00

hmMm tOdAe wAs A PrEtTy nOrMal dAe...eXcEpT FeR Da fAcT ThAt My bRo sUdDeNlY DeCiDeD To lAuNcH A MaSsIvE AtTcK On Mi bY BeAtInG ME!!!..nOt fAiR...AnIhOw..MaYbE DeSiCiOnS ArEnT MeAnT TO bE MaDe EZpEzIaLlY wHeN It cUmS To sOmEtIn ReWlY ReWlY ToUgH.. HmMm..YoU`D JuSt hAvE To gO WiTh dA FlOw.. sOmEhOw I gEt tHeSe fEeLiNgS Of hOw tHiNgS are suPpOsEd To be buT uNtIl a cErTaIn pOiNt..YoU HaVe tO ChAnGe plaNs a lIl.. MaKe aDjUsTmEnTs.. SoMEhOw iS TaT cHaNgInG GoD`S PlAn..AnD CuM To tHiNk oF iT..a sIn??..hMmM..ANiWaE..sOmEtImEs dECiSiOnS hAvE To bE MaDe iN uR WaE wHiLe sOmEtImES YoU HaVe tO Go WiTh Da fLoW..

SuPeR hApPi

2004-08-24T15:55:00.000-07:00

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2004-08-11T18:38:00.000-07:00

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2004-08-08T18:57:00.000-07:00

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